Keluar bersama berdua = Date ?

situasi 1

Mr. L : Dah lame tak jumpe, jom kite lunch same2.
Ms. T : Errr. . lunch ? (tak penah2 ajak aku lunch) Lunch utk ape ek?
Mr. L : Saje2 borak2.
Ms. T : (tak bape berminat sebenarnye, tp berbudi bahasa  je nie) Okay kot. Nnt awak setla bile. Kalo saye free boleh laa. Lunch mase weekday laa k!

Situasi 2

Ms.T : Bz gile dgn keja smp tadek mase nak catch up kan? So, ape kate kalo free mase cny kite lepak2 n catch up? (dgn intention betul2 nak lepak saje)
Mr. P : Err. .tak pasti lagi. tgkla camne

macam ade satu stigma baru plak. asalkan kalo ade opposite sex tu ajak kuar..mcm indirectly ajak nak kuar date..walhal dalam situasi kedua2 diatas..ajakan tu mmg dgn niat utk lepak2 sbb dah lame tak berjumpe..aku rase kalo dalam situasi mcm nie, the best thing to do:

1. Kalo kite comfortable dgn org tu, dan kite plak free, just jumpe jelaa, maybe leh bawak member,( ade 2 function: nak kurangkan akwardness dan boleh gunakan member tu utk escape kalo tetibe jadi berpanjangan plak aktiviti tu)

2. Kalo tak comfortable, then just say NO

3. Takyah laa nak pk lebih2. Just assume sume ajakan tu hanyelah atas name persahabatan je.

4. Kalo pastu, disusuli dgn ajakan yg lebih kerap, itu baru boleh dikatakan ade niat lain . .(aku tak percaya pompuan/laki yg boleh ade more than 1 platonic relationship.bg aku the most is only 1 platonic relationship)so mase tu baru made up ur mind either to proceed or to exit. .

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celoteh ujung minggu

Akhirnya weekend yg panjang tiba lagi. Rindu sgt pada weekend yg panjang nie walaupun asalnye aku tadek ape2 perancangan pun untuk cuti 3 hari tu. Nak ajak teman seangkatan berpoya2, die join xpdc mulu. Nak ajak bff yg sorang lagi, plan dgn ehem die mmg tak dpt aku nak interframe (lgpun tak elok kaco org yg sedang hangat2 nie) So aku dgn dedikasinye mengangkut kerja2 pejabat pulang ke rumah. Hakikatnye, hanye selama 2 jam sahaja aku spend masa membelek2 keja yg dibawak pulang tu iaitu pada hari jumaat malam sabtu.

Sbbnye hari pertama, aku plan nak g gym, nak g shopping kat suria KLCC, nak g galeri petronas, tp sume tak jadi, sbb aku bangun lewat dan sehariannye aku asik tido je, aku tadek mood nak buat ape2 pun. Hari kedua, aku ajak mak n adik dan bfnye berjalan2 di Ikea. Mak nak mencari cabinet combination utk renovation dapur. Aku nak mencari deko@sampah2 baru utk ditambahkan kat dlm bilik yg dah sedia byk sampah tu. Spt biasalaa, aku cari barang yg termurah boleh aku dapat kat situ.

Paper Magazine holder 5 pcs for RM3.30
4R Picture frame 3pcs for RM5.90
Laundry basket for RM8.90
Waste basket for RM2.80
Stationery organizer for RM5.00

So, overall I spent RM25.90. :P Belanja diorg pre-lunch at the Ikea restaurant. Pas 3-4 jam round sane, kitorg check out. Plan awal nak g sambung shopping dgn bff, Rina terbantut sbb dah terkuar umah lambat dan terabis masa lame kat ikea, plus, by the time kami sampai umah, sume terus terdampar kat ruang tamu, kepenatan gile!

Malam tu, aku yg bosan sgt dan taktau nak berborak dgn sape pada malam ujung minggu, buatlaa satu projek kanak2 ribena, iaitu mencorakkan magazine holder yg sgt boring tu. Dah lame gile tak pegang brush n bermain poster colour, so hasilnye pun tak bape cantiklaa (haha, walhal aku mmg tadek bakat seni). Tp rase cam stress aku dapat disalur keluar bile aku buat aktiviti camni.

Dan hari ketiga, separuh hari diabiskan dgn melayan Coffee Prince, dr pagi sampai tengahari (dah tgk kali ke 4 pun still boleh melekat tgk)namun setelah menekadkan diri, aku pun siap2, g menyambung aktiviti shopping dgn Rina. Aktiviti shopping dimulakan dikedai2 kasut dan diselang selikan dgn tea break di The Warung dan disambung di kedai2 baju dan diakhiri dgn tapauan di Krispy Kreme dan pre dinner di Yo Sushi. (sedapnye sashimi tuna dan salmon) 

Hasilnye tiada celahan utk aku menyiapkan keja. Aku kena belajar kurangkan tido! Aku kena belajar kurangkan nafsu membeli belah ! dan paling penting aku kena belajar tinggalkan saje kerja dipejabat. Cukup2la aku buat OT tak berbayar di pejabat.

p/s: aku hanye makan sekeping donut saje!

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a confession . .

Two weeks had passed. So far so good. Once in a while the memories did come back. It lingered around me for a while, before I shunned it away when it grew into pain. Weird enough, the feelings will eventually grew stronger whenever I was in the train, let it be the monorail or star LRT. There were times when I secretly wished that he’s not married, or secretly hoping for us to bump into each other. It had been expected that withdrawal process would take some time and might hurt me occasionally, but should you asked me whether I’d regretted for what had happened, I would have tell you that,

“I’m grateful to get to know him, meeting him like meeting Mr.KA for the second time, be with him made my heart beating extremely faster than usual and because of him, I smiled more. Though this might be one of his favorite past time, for me, it had teaches me very valuable lessons in relationship, never trust anybody except Allah and myself.”

p/s: :) . .one day the spring will follow me everywhere i go . .

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commitment phobic

aku adalah seorang yg tidak yakin pada diri sendiri apabile tibe time financial commitment. sbb tu jugaklah, aku tak penah ade kredit kad. aku bayar pakai cash saje tak kirela besar mane pun perbelanjaan hari tu. tp setelah beberapa kali buat short term commitment dgn bff, aku rase cam dah konfiden skit, nak tambah komitmen aku. so, kalo dulu gaji bulanan aku, komitmen nye hanya utk bonda tersayang, kini dah di tambah dgn komitmen bayar insuran setiap bulan, bayar membership FF, bayar misc perbelanjaan kat bff. mula2 aku rase agak terancam perbelanjaan bulanan aku. tp bagusnye aku dah tak membeli kasut atau beg tiap2 bulan. ahaha.

dan kini, aku rase cam dah bersedia nak tambah komitmen baru. iaitu membeli kereta. dlm otak aku dah ade beberapa model kereta yg aku berkenan(suzuki swift / hyundai getz)or maybe my old flame, the persona, plus i heard that persona will be given another round of facelife somewhere around this year, refer to here. tp pape hal pun, kite amik lesen keta dulu k?

p/s: takpun aku mintak puegeot baru makcik tersayang saje. .

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yang tak tertanggung. .yang menanggung..dan yang ditanggung . .

skang waktu tido aku dah tunggang langgang. minggu lepas tido kul 3pagi sokmo. minggu nie tido kul 11 mlm plak. tp waktu bangunnye tetap sama iaitu 5.30 pagi.(intro yg tak penting, boleh diabaikan)

pagi tadi aku bangun tido dgn rasa yg tak sedap hati dan berdebar2. tak sedap hati sbb sakit perut yg bukan semacam nak melepak tandas sepanjang hari. dan bukan jua sakit perut yg rase nak memuntahkan isi perut. dan paling penting bukan sbb masalah bulanan. sakit yg aku rase kalo pegi jumpe doc, konfem kena warded. aku sebenarnye sentiasa mencuba seabis daya menahan sakit perut ni. biarlaa cam nak tercabut ape2 pun dlm perut nie, aku cume akan pegi hospital, bile aku sendri tak sedar (iaitu pengsan). makanye pagi itu aku pegi keja dgn menanggung sakit perut yg tak tertanggung tu.

sampai kat ofis, utk tempoh sejam, aku cam lipas kudung buat persediaan utk mesyuarat audit dgn klien. sampai ade suatu ketika aku mcm nak menyumpah diri sendiri sbb tak buat siap2 mase aku stay back kat ofis mlm tadi. tp benda dah lepas, tak patut dikenang. igtkan hanya teman sorang bos, upenye 2 bos. ok. menarik. lebih menarik bile aku tertanye2 mesyuarat di ofis klien yg byk kenangan manis tapi pahit tu ke? tetibe bile terpk kan benda tu, aku jd sesak nafas tiba2. terus aku duduk dan beristighfar. rupenye perasaan yang  pernah ditanggung hati nie, masih ada.

persoalan aku terjawab bile sampai di bangunan asing tu. aku senyum diiringi "alhamdulillah", walaupun hati kecil aku seperti nye agak kecewa. mesyuarat yg aku jangka sejam lebih, berlanjutan hampir 2 jam. sakit perut masih berlarutan, dan makin jadi tak tertanggung sbb agak tertekan melayan pertanyaan klien mengenai surat kepada pengurusan. aku rase sbb sikap aku yg perfectionist menyebabkan aku cepat stress bile ade org mengajukan kesilapan yg aku buat.

dr tempat mesyuarat, aku beransur ke Kota Damansara, pejabat klien yg lain. seksa sungguh menahan sakit perut nie. dan aku tak tahu kenapa tiba2 pada waktu tu, aku terasa rindu pada seseorg yg tak patut dirindui. terasa mcm sume perasaan yg ditanggung selama nie, dah tak tertanggung lagi, sehingga aku yg menanggunggnye hampir2 nak menghubungi dia. mujur, ego aku masih tinggi, akal aku masih berjaya mengawal emosi aku. cume waktu tu, hati kecil aku yg menjerit2, "i really2 miss you".

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pink and orange

i met my cousin, eza last saturday, mase cukur jambul my niece. i just cant believed that she'll be getting married in 4 months time. We chatted about her preparations. It seemed like that she had booked a bungalow, the receptions will be at night(most probably a RSVP event), and it will be in pink and orange(colours which fits her personality as someone who is bubbly yet outspoken)

She had bought some of the hantaran gift too, but still indecisive on whether to ask us to help with the hantaran arrangement or upah others to do it. I love to arrange for the hantaran, but the thing is she will be using fresh flowers, n i cant guaranteed that i will be able to do it at quite last minute.(plus, there's possibility that i will have to work on that saturday morning) So, after discussion with her mother, Mak Ngah, we decided to send it to someone else.

Anyway, as i wouldnt be able to arrange the hantaran for them, i am thinking what else that i can do for my cousin's wedding. For instance, right now i'm having this two idea, 1st-video slide of their love journey or 2nd-guest book. as the wedding is in may, i still have like 3 months to decide. another things to do-have to slim down much2 more than before. As there will be lots of dress up to do. :P

Credit picture to : DistinctiveWeddings

p/s: escort wanted. rm100 per hour. LOL . nah..just kidding. why would i need a guy to escort me when i have bunch of cute little nephews to accompany me? :)

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already gone . .

Kelly Clarkson - Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have work out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

[Chorus]
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

[Chorus]

You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone
Ahhh already gone, already gone, already gone

Remember all the tings we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

[Chorus]

You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

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