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cara2 menghilangkan stress dgn berkesan..

bile terpaksa berhadapan dgn bermacam ragam perangai manusia..aku tetibe jadi stress..sbnrnye mmg dah stress..stress ngan keja yg tak penah nak abis..stress dgn exam..stress dgn hal family yg kekadang tanak cube memahami aku..tp stress kali ini..dah over the limit..mcm mane aku tau? well..utk mereka yg masih tak tau..this are among the symptoms that u're stress..

- excessive hair loss..
- sleepless night..
- shopping when u dont have the budget..
- can easily cried anytime or anywhere ..
- loss of appetite or overeating..

i'd double check and it's confirmed that i got all the symptomps stated above..any suggestion on how can i overcome this stress? i still have one more week to go..if i can tolerate for the first two weeks..hopefully i could go through all of this for one more week...fortunately..i've very understanding besfren..yg berjaya mengurangkan skit sakit pale n sakit hati nie..

depending on the stress symptomps, i got unique treatment for each of it..(kalo tak..mustahil plak rasenye nak bertahan for another one week)

- excessive hair loss..
went to a saloon, had my hair wash and cut into new style..so that leh cover rambut yg makin menipis..

- sleepless night..
alang2 balik lambat dr opis, i asked my father and his wife to fetch me and belanje makan n jejalan at the park sampai kaki rase dah takleh jalan..sampai je umah..i just put my head on the pillow n tanpa disedari dah tertido pun...

- shopping when u dont have the budget..
this one..after having 2in1 meal (lunch&dinner) at the kl sentral..jejalan with rina, n without planning, i bought a new blouse which cost me about rm70 (walhal duit dlm bank was less than rm300)..when reached home..kinda regret for spending that much for just one blouse, however, no worry as i still have my duit raya well kept in my closet..just nice~


- can easily cried anytime or anywhere ..
there's one night when i cant take it anymore, i just cried it all out, so that i wont be accidentally jd drama queen plak as i already let it go..but then..kinda miss my uni's life..coz dulu kalo nak nangis i got my besfren shoulder..but now..nangis dlm bilik sorang2..(i'm not that closed wif my mum n sis)


- loss of appetite
i did nothing with it..let it be the way it is laa..sbb if loss appetite, cam benefited my body too..but if i started to crave for sumthing that sweets or $$$..that one..had to watch out..

the day when i became an org kaya sementara..

I woke up a bit late today (though i aware that today i would have to go back to the office..sigh~) A bit rushing as I’d to iron my clothes n tudung..packed up my laptop..n I’d cut down my time in the shower to 20 minutes(wondering how long it would take for me to get my shower?) sumhow, i'm still late..had a fight with my lil bro who commenting me for being so slow to get ready for work..hello my lil bro..please think carefully before u want to say sumthing bad to me..esp..when i'm in the mood swing..soo..no $$ for you this week..i'm not that desperate either to ask you to send me to the bus stop (sesi meluahkan perasaan)

n as i'm already late..i think it should be ok if i just took a cab from my home to the office..yeah..i really need to pamper myself after I’d stressed myself badly last week..lucky there's no jam n i managed to reach office by 7.10 a.m but i've to fork out almost rm15..hahah..

as the day passed by..we had our lunch at this nasi 'ayam kampung' restaurant..nyum2..the fried 'ayam kampung' taste veryyy nice...n the price is also nice..mine is about rm6..from the client..went back to home with one of my officemate..dunno why suddenly the silent treatment started again..maybe he thinks that i'm a bored person..which means there is no interesting topic that we can chit chat on..or maybe he's too tired to talk..or maybe he try to figure out why the fed highway always jam..or maybe he was mad at me bcoz of sumthing that i've said? maybe this..maybe that..by the time i reached the lrt cempaka station..i felt very tired already..tired becoz i'm trying so hard to figure out how could i overcome this silent treatment..

n as usual i failed to close the door properly again n this make him frown..but today i dont give a damn..i'm sooo tired..the train to sentul had just left me..have to wait for another 10 minutes..when i reached ttwangsa the bus also had left me..to wait for another bus..it means another 15-20 minutes to be wasted..not today..i'm not in the mood to wait..soo..i took cab..pampering myself again..but this time it cost me rm10..soo..the rest..is immaterial..i'd safely reached home..n spent rm25 just for transport today (that is where org kaya sementara took place)..with that..good nite..

regrettable

as i've been stuck in the silent treatment today (again?? Sounds like it had becoming a routine to us now)..i had spent the time by doing some mind talking..i’ve been probing my brain..thinking what i've done wrong till i've to live with this silent treatment (though I hate crowd..but I cant tolerate the sound of quietness) soo..slowly i rewind..was it happened when one day, i decided to change my career path..from tech girl to the acct savvy..but then..i rewind to 2001..when i decided to change my course from chemical eng. to Information system..still a not a wise decision that i've made..i'm not satisfied..rewind to 2000..if only my mum allowed me to further my study to aussies..but still..if only i became the top scorer in the spm then i could have more choices..all of this are regrettable..but then i opt not to regret what i've done or decided..life without challenge would be very boring..n without having going thru all of that..i would not got the chance to meet so many great ppl around me..soo..thats how i end up my mind talking..when i'm about to start a new ‘hot’ topic for my mind talking..i heard sumone asking me sumthin 'lagu sape nie?' n the silent treatment had stop for the day..n it will be regrettable if it happens again tmr..

trouble sleeping

got a lot of things to be done..got lots of thing still pending..got lots of thing to be jot down in the blog dearie too..but..i wish..i have the luxury to do sooo rite now..nway sumthing is happening to me..yup..having trouble to get a quality sleep ..why aaa...dunno how to explain..i think maybe this lyrics will do it..

it's late and i'm feeling so tired having trouble sleeping
this constant compromise, between thinking and breathing

could it be I'm suffering, because I'll never give in
wont say that I'm falling in love
(please Please) Tell me I dont seem myself,
couldn't I blame something else,
dont say I'm falling in love

some kind of therapy, is all I need (all I need)
please believe me (please believe me)
some instant remedy, that can cure me completely

could it be I'm suffering, because I'll never give in
wont say that I'm falling in love
(please Please) Tell me I dont seem myself,
couldn't I blame something else,
dont say I'm falling in love

cause I've been there before and it's not enough
so nobody say it (so nobody say it),
dont even say it (don't you even say it)
I got my eye's shut whoa no oh no,n,no

could it be I'm suffering, because I'll never give in
wont say that I'm falling in love
(please Please) Tell me I dont seem myself,
couldn't I blame something else,dont say I'm falling in love
don't say that I'm falling in love X 4

couldn't I blame something else
dont say, dont say
dont say, dont say
don't say that I'm falling in love (repeat till end)

performed by : corinne bailey rae

p/s: so..satisfied?

puasa yg diuji

that morning..after the azan subuh..i woke up n all of sudden i'm having this feeling to fast for the day..though i did realize that the last thing i drank was just plain water n it was 8 hrs ago, still i decided to proceed..however..sumhow..for not being able to break the fast when the time had came..it was really frustrated..as what my bestfren had told me.."tak lengkap ibadah puasa..bile tak berbuke pada waktunye"..sumthing happened when it was almost the time for me to break the fast..but to cut it short..bcoz of that irresponsible decision..i who had stop taking my gastrik medication for quite sumtime..that night..after reaching home at almost 9.15pm..i ate a bowl of vegetable soup and took my mum's aspirin n sleep (I should have guess that the gastric missed me too)..just a reminder to me>>maybe in case..i should stock up my gastrik medication back..yup..to guys or gals out there might think that it is so childish of me to complain about this in the blog..it's up to u..but for my side..i am feeling much more better now~

p/s: backdated entry nih

to my besfren..

special entry dedicated to my besfren Rina..

las friday after potluck at the office, i had an overnight stay at Rina's house purposely for helping her out wif her engagement and open house preparation which will be held the next day. got to meet with her cousins which was quite entertaining, n i think the only thing that i've done there was eating, the hantaran, and helping her to make-up..nway she looked very nice in her green kebaya with veil n glasses (rina please dun forget ur contact lens mase kawin nnt). the engagement ceremony was very simple, within minutes her MIL to be (aunty irene) already gave her engagement and merisik ring..then busy wif eating..laksa+roti jala+lontong..sedap2 belaka n sampai bungkus2..to rina tq for inviting me to be part of ur important day..dun worry..nnt aku dah jumpe yg berkenan dihati..it will be ur turn plak..hahaha..:p

it's impossible

fave song for the week...

Somos Novios (It's Impossible) (with Andrea Bocelli)
Written by Canache Armando Manzanero

Andrea:
Somos novios
Pues los dos sentimos mutuo amor profundo
Y con eso ya ganamos lo más grande
De este mundo

Nos amamos, nos besamos
Como novios
Nos deseamos y hasta a veces
Sin motivo, sin razón
Nos enojamos

Christina:
Somos novios
Mantenemos un cariño limpio y puro
Como todos
Procuramos el momento más oscuro

Both:
Para hablarnos
Para darnos el más dulce de los besos
Recordar de qué color son los cerezos
Sin hacer mas comentarios
Somos novios

Christina:
Ohh ooh ooh, ohh yeah

Both:
It's just impossible

Nos amamos, nos besamos
Como novios
Nos deseamos y hasta a veces
Sin motivo, sin razón

Andrea:
Nos enojamos

Christina:
Sin motivo, sin razón

Andrea:
Somos novios

Both:
Mantenemos un cariño

Andrea:
Limpio y puro

Christina:
Yeah

Andrea:
Como todos

Christina:
Como todos

Andrea:
Procuramos

Both:
El momento más oscuro

Christina:
Ohh yeah

Para hablarnos
Para darnos el más dulce de los besos
Recordar de qué color son los cerezos
Sin hacer mas comentarios

Andrea:
Somos novios

Christina:
Somos novios

Andrea:
Siempre novios

Christina:
Ooh

Both:
Somos novios

korean drama series 05

cast: Jang Na Ra, Ryu Shi Won, Myung Se Bin
story ^credits CindyW88+yeohweping(soompi)

the weDDing - will be aired at 8tv beginning 10th November @ 7.00pm, which means that i wont be able to watch it as now is the peak season n to be back at home by 7pm is soooo impossible..though i'm soo looking fwd to watch this korean series as i dun have the budget to buy the box set (maybe i would have to figure out the other way that would allow me to watch it fo free!!)..nway based on the comment that i'd read, most of it seems to enjoy this series..Jang Nara plays the role Se Na (세나) who has a nickname “Princess” having beautiful appearance and specializing piano. She and the role Seung Woo (승우, played by RSW), who passes foreign affairs exam to become a diplomat, have a matchmaking marriage. They and the character Yoon Soo (윤수, played by MSB) form triangle love relationship. The script writer is Oh Soo Yun (오수연) who wrote for the drama “Autumn Tale”. Jang Na Ra’s last drama was “I’m gonna fall in love”aired by MBC in the summer of 2004.Ryu shi-won will be playing a diplomat who is secretly in love with Myung Seh bin (whose work is something to do with flowers). He meets Jang nara later at a match-making. Jang nara will be playing a girl from a wealthy family who is kind of wilful (just like the roles she is famous for).